Nobody But You

I am actually hoping people to stop asking the same question again and again?

It's really annoying and distracting. People thought I may feel sad or unhappy because my best friend is in relationship with a girl that I know. Frankly speaking, I am really happy and I would like to wish them all the best from the bottom of my heart.

Firstly, I had a very very good girlfriend called Elene. I am really happy to be with her and I don't feel regret at all for any decision that I've made so far. I do feel sorry to a 'girl' because of an incident but not anymore now.

I know being guilty or feel sorry is not a proper solution for this matter. Therefore, I decided to stick with my decision no matter what is happening. I know I will be hated by 'her', but I realized that 'she' is no longer affecting me both physically and mentally. 

This is because I know who I love the most at this moment and also the rest of my life. There are so many questions, but there is only ONE answer - I love you, Elene.

I just wanted to be with my girlfriend, and I know I've made the right decision. Love you forever

Happy Birthday, Dad..

It's the 8th of January today, and also my dad's birthday but...

I went back to KL last June for my summer holiday break. Couple days before I catch my flight, my aunt told me that my dad actually had liver cancer and he has been ill since February.

I can't express my feeling at that particular moment with any single word. I been planning how to spend my summer holiday at Malaysia but ended up cancelled everything.

Few weeks passed, his health is getting worse and got no sign of getting any better though he been taking medicine on time and gave up his job to take full rest at home. At last, my family decided to send my dad to China for the liver transplant but my aunt don't reckon him to go China. However, this is the last and only chance for my dad.

So, we sent my dad to China during August. In order to be treated, we have to make some fake China ID, and pay a lot money 'under table' to get the live liver. The medication cost per night is £2,000++ and the hospital in Guangzhou, China is even worse than General Hospital in Malaysia. The facilities and staff are bad but we have got no choice.

Another few weeks passed, my dad looks like a skeleton with only bones. He used to be 110kg but his weight dropped to 50kg and less during the treatment. My heart broken when my brother sent me some photos of my dad from China.

I will be having my exam in few days time but my aunt asked me to go back to KL to see my dad, because it could be the last time I get to see him. I immediately wrote a letter to my University and bought the air ticket on Monday and leave on Wednesday early morning.

My dad's situation is getting worse and almost gone few times. One day, the doctor said they cannot cure my dad because it's too late. They were the one who promised that liver transplant will definitely work when we sent them my dad's medication report. For god sake, they asked my dad to stayed there for months and told us they can do nothing at last. 

For all the money and time we spent there, we got nothing at the end. We actually spend few million ringgit malaysia for the liver transplant. At the end, my family made a very tough decision - send my dad back to Malaysia again. He was admitted to Gleneagles Hospital straight away from the airport on Monday night.

I got everything packed so I am watching TV while waiting for dinner. All of a sudden, my aunt rushed to the lounge with tears on her face like a waterfall. She was so emotional and she told me that my dad has passed away in the hospital just before I catch my flight from the UK.

I should have gone back earlier, I am so regret that I did not went back earlier. Don't ever trust people from China.

Again, Happy Birthday, Dad..

Love,
Boon